10/15

Today's Plan: run
I don't know if I have mentioned this before, but I am a procrastinator. I believe it's genetic--or learned behavior--as my mother is also. She denies it vigorously, but I lived with her. If I can admit it, I can out her.  I certainly didn't get it from my father. My lists, now that I got from my father.
Anyway, instead of running this morning, I napped on the couch. It was a perfectly lovely morning   for a run. But sleep claimed me and it was also lovely.
My plan then became to run when I got home, knowing I should be home by 5:30 and it doesn't get dark until 6:10ish. Of course, when I to work I learned I had to stay a bit later since someone else was going home early. That's what I get for being a procrastinator. I managed to get home early enough to do just over a mile.
When I went down to my nephew's game on Saturday I was complaining to my brother that I can't get out early enough, especially at this time of year, to run as far as I want. His answer was simply to run faster. I snorted and we moved on. But he was right. I have been slacking on pushing myself. I have focused on distance, but that doesn't mean my times should suffer. At least, not as much as they have. I run defensively now: I am "saving" myself.
For what? If I really overtaxed my abilities, what is the worst that can happen? I can slow down. I could even walk. Holding back gets me nothing, but I use it as an excuse to not push  myself. Guess after this moment of self realization I will have to work harder. Ignorance is bliss!